Reboot the Ambition

2013-06-18 16.19.01I’m in the middle of a reboot.

The thing about a reboot is you feel all disparate feelings all at once. You’re exhausted, frustrated, irritated that you got to this place in the first place, and completely impatient. But you’re also feeling the twinges of rejuvenation, the little sparks are popping up in your belly that make you want to jump out of your seat, you see all the things you’ve been wanting to do for so long (or have been slowly working on for so long) and they suddenly seem real to you, attainable, and totally worth it. You want to shut the world out while inviting it back in with open arms.

I’m exhausted just writing that paragraph.

I turned 28 in May. Unlike last year, I’m not going to list all the things I still haven’t accomplished or have failed at. Instead, I feel as if, really, truly, a chapter of some sort is coming to a close. It’s not necessarily as big as changing jobs or moving across the country, but it’s significant nonetheless and is rooted in my priorities more than anything else.

“It sometimes happens that a woman is handsomer at twenty-nine than she was ten years before.” – Jane Austen

I feel my system trudging along, getting all the software in order for the next big run.  I’ll drink my Chai Latte and read my William S. Burroughs and my Jane Austen and hash out my ideas, waiting for my ambitions to reboot to a welcome screen that says, “Alright. Enough with the bullshit. Let’s do this thing.”

In other news, here are some things on the docket:

new EV logoSeveral years ago I started a writers group at The Eclectic Company Theatre called Eclectic Voices, which grew to encompass a reading series and monologues shows. This month, fellow writer group coordinator Jeff Folschinsky and I started an online Literary Journal for the group, the goal of which is to showcase our own writers and our writer friends (for now, at least). I’ve always wanted to work at and/or run a literary journal of some sort some day, so this is a fun place to start. Check it out at

I’m currently working on rewrites for a new play called H.A.P., which I started this past year in the writers group of The Vagrancy. The play will have a public reading, directed by Caitlin Hart on July 21 at 3pm at Asylum LAB 1078 Lillian Way, Hollywood. It’s Pay-What-You-Can and there will be a talk back with Caitlin and me afterward.

I’m also working on rewriting a new play called
The Sudden Urge to Jump, which I wrote through the Skylight Theatre Company’s Lab Works. There will be some kind of reading this summer – details still to be determined.

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